When Did You Know?[ 113 vote(s) ]
1.	From Earliest Memory	29 / 26%
2.	By Age Five	32 / 28%
3.	By Age 10	23 / 20%
4.	Early Teens	13 / 12%
5.	Late Teens	2 / 2%
6.	Twenty - Thirty	2 / 2%
7.	Thirty -Forty	3 / 3%
8.	After Forty	8 / 7%
9.	STILL Don't Know!	1 / 1%

This subject has been covered many times over the years, but it's something a lot of "new" transitioners find interesting.

For some, it was known from the beginning. For others, it came like a thief in the night.....a surprise attack!

The QUESTION? - When did you realize that something was wrong about you.....your life? When did you FIRST think that there was some gender confusion? Was it your earliest memories? As a small child? Teenager? ......Older? Do you even question your gender?

Hugs, Dharla

[Updated on: Mon, 12 November 2007 07:11]

[Updated on: Mon, 17 December 2007 23:19]

From early memory, I began to dress in secret at 4-5. Was caught by both my peers at first attempt, really got no harsh reaction though.
They thought I was 'playing'

Was angry at my mom when she gave away my sisters clothes to my neighbour girlfriend (who I used to play a lot with at the time), which was also noticed by her. She told me when I came out to her, she then knew why.

Voted 2, at 5.

[Updated on: Wed, 31 October 2007 15:20]

Mhmm, for me there was a development, first weak signs in the early childhood, the earliest weakest one just being a discussion started by my little sister on the difference between girls and boy. I must have been 3 or perhaps 4, and i just remember the scene and the explanation leaving a question mark for me. Using my mother's cloths, her lipstick, her curlers () almost as long as i can remember, to some degree tolerated by my parents. But unfortunately less and less as i grew older.

With 10 knowing my name, with 12 when i was as large as my mother i enjoyed an intense cross dressing phase which has been stopped by my father, in my early Youth between 11 and 15 several attempts to find out something on "sex change" in the public libraries, with 22 a first coming out as a crossdresser to my (meanwhile and still) wife, in my 20s the awareness, that there would happen much more with my transness if there wasn't the relationship, also moderate feelings that a female body was more approprate for me, in my mid 30s sadness about having missed a chance to transition and considerations of counseling because of that need.
But it was still too early, i managed to suppress it for several other years, even believed that i finally had managed to establish as a man.
Then, with 47, the decision to "permit whatever was in me, even if that would lead me through a transition", and finally with 48 after some months of crossdressing and self reflection getting more and more intense i KNEW and permitted being transsexual during a some weeks where i could go full time to test myself. This was also the beginning of my transition.

Despite of that there was a development in the picture of myself. With 48, i defined myself being type IV applying Benjamin's criteria, looking back on that time now i start smiling because i see a clear expression of type V.

So i might as well have written "with 5", in my youth, my thirties or later. I decided to chose after 40 because that was the time i *knew*. My father was probably much more aware about my GID than i was.

Have a nice day

Beate

[Updated on: Sat, 03 May 2008 05:28]

[Updated on: Wed, 14 January 2009 09:04]